And there lies my problem with our Creator
All the times I wanted her black ass dead, you wouldn't take her
Don't do it now, I need her

from Slaughterhouse – Truth Or Truth, Pt. 1 Lyrics on Rap Genius

Meaning

He realizes the disturbing irony in the fact that all the times he wished his baby-mother’s death, nothing ever happened, but as soon as they reconciled, she was diagnosed as terminally ill. He explains that this is a current source of conflict between himself and God

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