All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wished she got a fuckin' abortion

from The Notorious B.I.G. (Ft. Bob Marley) – Hold Ya Head Lyrics on Rap Genius

Meaning

This is a very disturbing line as far as what it means for Biggie’s mental health. If he really believed his mother wished she had aborted him, the realization that their relationship is that far gone would be extremely depressing

Many gangster rappers try to appear cold and without feelings, but Biggie is clearly depressed about this shit, as any normal human being would be. He uses that emotion to write amazing music, because he probably DID consider suicide over some of this shit, it is really heavy

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