I cross my heart and hope to die
“Hope to die” is connecting to the last line about “suicide”.
The full saying is, “Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye,” basically meaning he’s keeping a promise.
The Game is trying to say that he would do anything to provide for his family and he promises that, continuing in the next lines.
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