Could you feel like shit when you miss yourself 1st? shit
But who gon pay the bills? supply the mills? no surplus
actually he says, “cos you feel like shit when you miss your sons first shit”.
when on tour, promoting albums, in the studio, shooting videos, going to award ceremonies, etc, a musicians life is very full. he says a father feels bad especially when he misses out on his sons first steps, words, etc.
he recognises however, that music is his way of paying the bills and supply the meals on the dinner table. so it is a catch 22 situation for him, as he wants to spend more time with his family, despite spending long hours at work. these are examples of when his mind drifts and he asks himself if he is defeating the purpose.
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