Part of me was hoping to be caught up in the moment
And to be open to the good and the God in me
He felt that certain parts of himself wanted to be a nice person and follow what other rappers were doing, but that part of himself was severed, as explained in the next line. So now he is completely original, and bad ass while doing it.
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