That's my bad, I can't even blame her for that
Jay continues paralleling a relationship with fame. Fame has fucked him over, but he’s still going back for it, and doesn’t blame fame, but rather accepts that he’s always going to be enticed by it.
The same goes for infidelity in a relationship. You can’t get mad at a girl for cheating on you again if you didn’t learn your lesson the first time around. It doesn’t matter if you don’t think you can live without her; blame is still all on you.
This line continues off the previous line referencing his coming out of retirement, dropping Kingdom Come. He’s saying that album was his bad, and he can’t blame the spotlight (her) for being so hot during that time.
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