But if you take into consideration the bitter hatred I had
Along with the next two lines, Eminem is referring to his past, hence the “bitter hatred that I HAD.” Eminem came from a broken home where he was abused, and was bullied multiple times and was even put in a coma.
It also refers to his long history with women, which led to his misogynistic attitude:
His on/off relationship and marriage with Kim; who had an affair with another man, their struggle for custody over Hailie which he was forced to give up, her addiction with cocaine, as well as making him suicidal.
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