Cause the very thing that I love's killing me and I can't conquer it
My OCD is conking me in the head,
At this point, his entire mental state has taken over. He cannot control what his conscience is making him do. “The Monster” has destroyed everything he knows that is either good or bad. OCD is an acronym for Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. Eminem is known as a perfectionist in his domain, mainly Hip-Hop/Rap. This is demonstrated through the absence of Eminem mixtapes over the years.
The beat also skips at this point, which could be:
is a contradiction to Em’s perfectionist style when it comes to mixing songs – any flaw becomes so obvious that he can’t ignore it. The beat skips in such a way that it does not follow the timing, and would drive any obsessive person insane.
to induce anxiety in the listener and show them for a moment what OCD feels like.
sounds like knocking (i.e. like his OCD).
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