I'm so confused, okay I'm getting weeded now
I know I contradicted myself, look, I don't need that now
Jay is confused from the weed smoke, and doesn’t “need” your input on his consistency. He’s self commenting on how weed disorients your train of thought.
He’s confused whether or not to get out of the game. His mom is scared of him getting killed, and he has already made millions. But the attention from the girls the pecks that come with the drug-dealing life make this a hard decision.
The verse flows in a probing fashion. Jay is painting a picture of an inner struggle to quit the game of drug dealing as well as the burden of knowing his loved ones(mom most pointedly) are worried about how this is going to end for him. His confusion is with all these choices and decisions he has to make and then it gets so bad, he succumbs to smoking weed, something he’s been against just to show the listener how vulnerable he’s feeling by the end of this verse. He’s aware of the contradiction and he doesn’t need you to add any further chastising to his already tormented/confused state of mind.. Just let him be…
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