All my life I been considered as the worst
Lying to my mother, even stealing out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wished she got a fucking abortion
She don't even love me like she did when I was younger
(Get a hold of yourself nigga)
Sucking on her chest just to stop my fucking hunger
I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes
Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies
Biggie was always a troublemaker. Born in Brooklyn, NY and raised by a single working mother, he begun his criminal activities at the age of 12. Those varied from selling drugs, shoplifting, armed robberies, gun possession and others. His mother though had no idea until he was an adult. At age 17 he dropped out of highschool to focus 100% on drug trafficing. From 1989 until 1993 when he was found by Puff Daddy he has spent 3 years in prison.
Looking back at his early days, Biggie understands and regrets all this pain he caused his mother to go through. He wishes their relationship can be restored and that she’ll forgive him for his shortcomings.
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