I hate myself for being taught the rules of the hood
Which don't matter, no respect and no love
Ain't got jail for the real thugs
Lil B is saying that the so called ‘rules of the hood’ are ridiculous and cruel when they don’t involve love and respect for one another. He hates this aspect of the ghetto and thug culture. He further acknowledges his own guilt in having been complicit with these rules in the past, which makes the song and its message all the more inspiring. These days simply ‘admitting’ to your faults, without any intention to correct them, is seen as being the pinnacle of ‘realness’ and totally forgivable. Lil B acknowledges his own faults, and, as is evidenced by his song and his ethos, hates them and is determined to make better on them. Now that’s real.
B is also mourning the fact that the ‘real’ thugs, or the true wrongdoers (drug barons, gang leaders, or anyone else who actively perpetuates the misery of others for their own gain), often dodge jail time by having innocent subordinates take the heat for them. Anybody who hasn’t experienced this first-hand, just remember D'Angelo from HBO’s The Wire, who renounced a possibility to bring his own, guilty family to justice in favour of doing jail time that wasn’t rightfully his to suffer.
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