And it's nobody's fault I made the decisions I made
He doesn’t blame anyone for the conditions which lead to his thug life, he owns his life decisions.
I just play the hand I’m dealt, I can’t say I’ve never knelt
Before God and asked for better cards at times to no avail
But I never sat back feelin sorry for myself
If you don’t give me heaven I’ll raise hell
He offers this near the end of the song to make it clear is isn’t whining, he’s just relaying his tale.
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