Trying to forgive you for abandoning me
A possible reference to her father, who fell victim to drugs and alcohol when Nicki was a child.
Could also possibly be a reference to her mentor Lil Wayne’s imprisonment. He was in jail the whole time that she was recording this album, so his advice and guidance was probably missed.
Regardless of who it is about, she is trying her hardest to forgive them for leaving her.
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