For all the times that I drowned out hope
I don't really see the logic of me getting this spot on the lifeboat

from El-P – The Jig Is Up Lyrics on Rap Genius

Meaning

El-P is claiming responsibility for having “drowned hope” or destroying his past relationships.
Therefore, he doesn’t understand why he gets to have a good relationship now.

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