An integration of thoughts I feel about the situation
Back and forth my feelings was pacin'
Happy deep down but not joyed enough to have it
But even that's a lie in less than two weeks, we was back at it
The rapper (singer) has mixed feelings about the abortion, this is signified by pacing and accepting (integrating) difficult ideas (thoughts). He likes the idea of having a kid, but not enough to actually have one. After an abortion a woman can ovulate as soon as two weeks later, allowing her to become pregnant again.
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