Tired of not having a deal
Tired of having to deal with the bullshit without grabbing the steel

from Eminem – If I Had Lyrics on Rap Genius

He uses the two definitions of deal here, one of which he wants the other he doesn’t. What he does want is a record deal, so that he can put out an album and make some money. But he doesn’t want to have to “deal”, or put up with, all the bullshit around him without being able to pull a gun on anyone.

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