I shouldn't even be smiling, I should be angry and depressed

from Nas (Ft. Large Professor) – Loco-Motive Lyrics on Rap Genius

Meaning

With all of the things that have gone wrong for Nasty in the past few years (marriage, taxes, etc.) he should be down but instead he is finding peace, making dope music and getting money.

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