[Verse]
My only wish is to be young again
To stay up till six o'clock to see the sun rise again
Beaming through the window pane
No sign or a pinch of pain
5"4 with a smile unstained
Seven with a mind untainted...
Feels like the world is spinning much faster
And "Once Upon a Time" is everything that I am after
But it seems the Author's inking my life even faster
I just hope I'll get to read it all before the chapter...
Closes
I miss the past more than any man can understand
And wish the watch my grandpa bought could grip the time and turn the hands
Back to the days when I couldn't feel the gloom
Seemed the world was great
Or, at least, I had assumed
My mother was in perfect shape, my father was a step away
And everywhere I turned, I could see a person's smile for days
Things that amaze me the most I remember the least
Like the Thanksgiving we had and how it felt like a feast
Even though it was just me, my aunt, and my mother
In truth, it felt so much better with just us together
Then, in 2011, grandma was put on the roster
That was a piece of heaven mixed with a little nolstagia
And that's a line I will never take back
As for moments, I won't forget that
Cause it reminded me how much I missed you all
You're the reason I stand tall and why I've made it this far
And I pray that you know that I don't forgot about you at all
Not my mother, my auntie, my siblings nor my father too
I'm trying to become a son you can place your pride upon
As for past arguments: bye, gone, we're bygones
Summer time flights
Winter night fights
Doesn't change, whether you were wrong or you were right:
I've been blessed to have a father that's like you and that cares
All that anger and dispair didn't come out of thin air
You're just trying to assure that I make it in this world
Cause you've seen a couple lives spur into turmoil
Plus it's hard being a single father that's almost on his own
Three children under one roof, another that's barely grown
Altogether and more is why you have my respect
But when I look back at it all, it forces me to reflect
On the feeling of missing my little brother grow
Leaving a tiny voice to return as it's grown
Was something that had almost brought a tear to my eyes
It wasn't till that moment that I had realized
That I haven't been much of a big brother to him
As for the rest of the siblings, the same goes to them
But how can I be a Theo to Rudy, Rudy and Rudy
When Rudy carries half of the DNA of Theo's family?
But how can I complain when my life isn't insanity?
Memories I'm trying to retain; others out trying to maintain
I mean, one of my best friends is fighting to keep the lights on
But his life is a python, squeezing everything out of him
And I hope that he makes it, I swear this world's for the taking
If you just give it some time and apply a little patience
Then I know that you'll make
And it's crazy
Seems like we were born about a week ago
Like these clocks have been sprinting for the Olympic gold
Just yesterday, I was meeting my aunt for the first time
Fore my dad and I moved to a new house for the first time
While my brothers and sister ran around the old apartment
As my mother became a nurse - registered department
All in all, even with the pain, we made it through the flames
I bear that on my name, as a symbol never to be stained
So, in turn, I turn to give thanks to all of these people:
Friends, Family, Those Who Crossed Paths, Those Who Were Crossed Out
Confined by time's rule and given no tools to betray it
Has rose from dust this small jewel that all of you have created
That's stated because all of you will always be a part of me
Pardon me if I forget to say you're worth weight in diamonds, So
If the King's Ransom is said not to be inside of me
Obviously, somebody who's scarred, bless God, is lying to
You, me, us, we, and all of our memories
From South Padre Beaches to podcasts at Carnegie
I'm talking about "carrot juice." I'm talking about "Pikachu."
I'm talking about inside stuff that an outsider never knew
The moments that can never be erased nor replaced
May be gone without a trace but once I find where it's placed
I swear to God I'll break the case
I'm sorry if I'm rambling on, I'm trying to give a taste of my thanks
So I'll say:
I don't know where I'm heading, but I'm enjoying the ride
If I can keep these people with me, I will ride till I die
If I die as I ride, and it isn't as expected
I'll accept it
I was given a life and got to live it
Vivid
And that's more than most people can even say
So with that being said, before my head is to lay
I shall pray for the people that give me reason to breathe
Plus gave me my every breathe
I give you this piece of me
As a child trapped in an adult body, forever growing
Three clocks remain on his person
Sees none of them ever slowing
Daily trips down Memory Ln. while taking Future's cab
Time is the toll, but he prays he'll get it back
But he is just a boy within a body of a man
Who lives for the moment, and, yet, fails to understand:
Hours can't be lengthed
Minutes can't be shortened
And every second should be cherished, as a moment, in your mind
And these are just the thoughts
Of a moment in my mind