JayComplex

The song was not meant to force her to speak to me or convince her to want to be with me. It was simply me expressing myself the only way I know how, through music.

And despite the fact that I’ve been hurt several times, I keep going back for more…like a bad kid that’s always in detention or being punished for the same pranks and classroom disruptions.

It’s not a mystery that I derive inspiration and creativity from pain, because I consider myself an artist and my life seems to be in a cliche “starving artist” phase.

I wrote the first 2 verses prior to splitting up with this lady…and was only able to write the third verse after we separated, because I get a great deal of inspiration from pain and heartache.

I’m pleading with her to simply say what it is that she wants, just so that I can give it to her. As I ponder, I’m usually under the influence of a substance trying to think or relax despite the fact that I can’t convince her to be with me.

I do all these things, and still there is something stopping her from giving herself to me fully.

Telling her to speak to me as much as possible and as often as possible as if each time would be our last time speaking to one another.

My big plans for the future involve having enough resources to be able to take her anywhere in the world (just like a passport).

As well as I can take her to places that aren’t physical…as in, new plains of emotion, life, and happiness.

But the choice is hers…

I don’t want her to be with me just because I want to be with her, or because I do nice things or treat her well…I want her to be with me because she can’t live without me…similar the way you can’t travel without your passport.

Even while in the raging heat of the summer season in the Bahamas, she still keeps her cool with her demeanor and stays stylish.

I’m asking for the wind to blow her dress up just so I can re-enact the air vent scene of Marilyn Munroe with her.

Marilyn Monroe was also known for having sung happy birthday to former president John F. Kennedy…in comparison, I am trying to become the president of my own music business one day.