[Intro: Tech N9ne]
I didn't wanna fucking do this song, for real
But I wouldn't be real if I didn't
[Verse 1: Tech N9ne]
I be sittin' by myself and I be thinkin', "Momma, what have I become?"
All I wanted was a family, but when I look I be the only one
Losing everything but money, everybody left and I don't even get to see my young
Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run
On the road, doin' shows, get the woes, when it slows
Gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin' sold
I've been doin' this a minute but I think I wanna end it cause I'm on a higher level when I go
But the music I be doin' it, be losin', make it hard for me to grow
All I wanted was a family portrait, see my babies on a ranch with horses
But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets
I was livin' really good but I torched it
I'm sorry Ms. Jackson, I'm speakin' for real and I never meant to make your daughter cry
But I guess I'm a failure with women and I'm lost and I feel like I ought to die
Feel like I'm rotting away, my life is just off in the grey
How much does it cost? I will pay, to lay, and be off in a coffin today
I mean off in ashes, this life ain't after it clashes, If I get blasted
This is Suicide Letters all over again, I thought that I passed it
But I guess that I didn't, cause this one is written and there is no ending
When I'm broke I'm a joke, when I croke I just hope I won't be descending
But this ain't a joke, I want you to know that Tech N9na is never pretending
Alone in my bed, a gun to my head, asking, "Where is my happy ending?"
[Hook: Krizz Kaliko]
Tell me how it ends
What about me? Where is my happy ending?
What about me? Is this a life worth living?
You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?
Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?
Will this stop before I stop breathing?
Is there light in this dark I'm seein'?
[Verse 2: Tech N9ne]
I put my life in this music, N9na is inside out
I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside 'bout
Will they keep feelin' N9na forever? This I doubt
Can never cry for help, so if you listenin' this my (Shout!)
I'm searching for the passage way to happiness
But I'm wordly So I have to lay in nastiness
Yes, this is Strange year, worldwide fames near, but the games queer
Sometime I feel like I'm Rudolph the Reindeer
But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes
And the music they said blows, is on top and the cred grows
Can you ressurect a mother fucker that feel like he pose as a dead soul
Deteriorate to an inferior state almost equal to bread mold
Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those
Because all the time the ninna was shorted, what I bled froze
So now that I'm cold blooded, and hella sick is what the med shows
The tread slows, and dont even think you reviving a dead rose. Chea
[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]
I'm on the verge of insanity, but I'm competant
I'm breakin so I pick this one to vent
The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin evilness
I'm drownin in 151 and rumble ments. Thats how I feel
I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill
But I know damn well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill
This life is about a check, about a number about a bill
Think about all the love I lost cause my quest is about a mill
I feel like you're stupid, dont talk to me I'm crackin' up
And I don't mean laughter I'm full of bitterness and its backing up
And I live with angels, but lately demons been shackin' up
Tug of war with my spirit, you see the blood I'm hacking up?
I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder
Cause you pay the price for my life and its right like Bob Barker
And I won't pretend its ok I'm no facade starter
So I guess my only happy ending is in a massage parlor
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