They told me drunk words are sober thoughts, I’m staring at an empty bottle
I’ve been talking to my brother questioning everything that I know
The scratches on the vinyl match the rhythm of the rain drops
But when the record’s spinning is the only time the pain stops
And if my heartbeat is a metronome
Then I’m that white nerd who left his only stepping shoes at home
There’s never kisses for the wallflower
They told us never fear, still we all cower
Behind these worthless checks and percocets
Listening to my parents asking if I’m fucking working yet
Are you? I appreciate the roof
But it’s time your failed investment fixed its wings and flew the coop
So I pop another pill, like it’s the only thing that’s real
‘cause nothing will ever hurt me if nothing’s all that I feel
I got a couple problems, I solve them with the alcohol
I figure if I’m high enough, someday I’ll be bound to fall

I could have died, I’m such a fool
All the Valium in the world couldn’t keep me cool
I copped them and I popped them
There’s no stoppin
And I’m falling down
I could have died, I’m such a fool
Still reaching for the bottle when I think of you
Showed her and I told her
How she struck me
But I’m fucked up now

They told me drunk words are sober thoughts, I’m about to buy another bottle
Just so I can figure out why I’m terrified of tomorrow
Sorrow, we’re only as old as the day our heart breaks
So I’m a sixteen year old, obsessing over my mistakes
It’s like the pain is the only thing that’s real
So I fuck up every time just to prove that I can feel
But feelings fade away, skies turn to grey, and we all lose today
Lost my girl, another girl, so tell me how to make you stay
But she’ll leave just like the rest of them
That’s why I take my time when I’m blessed to be undressing them
Because a second ain’t a century
I need more than that, so Meredith, what aren’t you telling me?
I guess I’ll just get back to drinking
While I write another song, just wondering what she’s thinking
Pop another pill, I’ll be lucky if I overdose
I know I don’t mean it, so I’ll take enough to get me close