Trying to see where I should go from here
Should I be doing this for kicks or start my own career?
Am I far away? Am I close or near
To where I want to be? Someone tell me if the coast is clear
Will I survive swimming or will I die drowning?
What do you do when your vision's blurred and your mind's clouded?
This a nice outlet, but it's all I have
So if I lose, there ain't a plan to be falling back
On, no alternative, straight ahead, no swerving shit
Lost in dreams, crossing fingers, wonder what the verdict is
I'm standing first in line, but whose turn is it?
Not mine, so why do I even work if this
Wind never blows my way? Holding weight, my shoulder blades
Are caving in, the rage within is blazing in like solar rays
But this was all I needed, and this was all I wanted
One chance, just one chance, and now I got it

And I'm not gonna waste this
Any chance I see, I'll get up and fucking take it
Any way for me to make it
Any stops, limits, walls, believe that I will break them
And I know to keep my head up
Tomorrow always follows and dark weather will let up
There isn't no "instead of"
After falling down, those willing to get up got
Dedication

And these thoughts keep me up at night
I am sick of "what if's" and "wonder why's"
I'm stuck in the past, losing fucking time
The words I never said realign themselves in lullabies
I'm fighting one to five against my regrets
1. Love, 2. Hate, 3. Rejects
4. Not retaliating when I bleed red
5. Still no fucking CD yet
No respect since day one
May of '07, first step in, got made fun
Got spit on and knocked down and beat up
My team was just my pen and my paper and me as leader
So chica, please comprende if I'm going loco
Cus this the first time in years I'm not feeling solo
And this was all I needed, and this was all I wanted
One chance, just one chance, and now I got it