This song was also written by Kurt because when he was a kid he tested positive for ADHD, which he didn’t actually have, so his parents had to put him on Ritalin or a related drug, which only made it worse

It’s worth noting that overdosing on Lithium is extremely dangerous and often leads to coma or death.

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Lithium - Wikipedia — Wikipedia

λίθος Lithium (from Greek: lithos, "stone") is a chemical element with symbol Li and atomic number 3. It is a soft, silvery-white alkali metal. Under standard conditions, it is the lightest metal and the lightest solid element. Like all alkali metals, lithium is highly reactive and flammable, and is stored in mineral oil.

Lithium is a drug used by doctors and psychiatrists to treat patients with Manic-Depressive Disorder, also known as Bipolar Depression. This is a very volatile mental condition, and Lithium often helps regulate the mood of the patient. Mike Tyson is a famous Lithium patient.

The song also mentions the time he spent with the Christian family of his friend during his teenage years.

This song honestly seems more like Schizoaffective Disorder (Basically a mix of Bipolar Disorder and schitzophrenia) from the first line stating that his friends are “in his head”.

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This songs also relates to when….

Something lost during editing? Oversight? Incomplete thought? Please check.

i guess in the first line, when he said that his friends are in his head, they are no longer physically with him but he s holding them in his memory

“I’m so happy ‘cause today I found my friends, they’re in my head”
Referencing his belief that God is made up and ‘in his head’
“I’m so ugly, that’s okay ‘cause so are you. Look amused”
Probably talking about his father’s children under his other wife and this being something he would say to annoy them.
“Sunday mornin’ is everyday for all I care. I’m not scared”
A cynical take on his aunt/uncle’s devout Christian faith (Sunday being church).
‘I’m not scared’ is likely something personal.
“Light my candles in a daze ‘cause I found God”
I don’t know, but my guess is this is a reference to the Jewish tradition of lighting 12 candles on Chanukah. I don’t know though
“I’m so lonely, that’s okay I shaved my head, I’m not sad
And just maybe, I’m too plain for all I’ve heard, I’m not sure”
Probably an ironic take on his rebellious and eccentric nature due to his parents not giving him the attention he had always received after they divorced.
“I’m so excited, I can’t wait to meet you there. I don’t care.”
An obvious reference to meeting God in heaven, and maybe his apathy towards Christianity.
“I’m so horny, that’s okay, my will is good”
Kurt is probably cynically noting the strictness towards sex in the Bible, and his ironic interpretation that sex is forbidden unless you have a good will.
“I like it, I’m not gonna cry”
“I miss you I’m not gonna cry”
“I like you I’m not gonna cry”
“I’d kill you I’m not gonna cry”
+”I’d (I?) love you I’m not gonna cry”
Not sure about this verse, but it sounds like a progressively aggressive attitude towards God. It also may be something to do with his gay friend in high school.
Fun fact: Cobain stated “I am not gay, although I wish I were, just to piss off homophobes”
-repeat of chorus-
+new line
“I’m so ugly, that’s okay ‘cause so are you. Broke our mirrors”
Again, likely a taunt to his half-brother (and sister) and the line ‘broke our mirrors’ is mostly self explanatory. He refers to himself in third person, plurality, indicating a bipolar nature. I can’t briefly explain what breaking mirrors symbolizes psychologically, but it’s basically hating yourself.
-repeat of ‘I’m not gonna cry’ verse-
-end-

Great song. Really sad too. I love Nirvana and wrote this after reading Kurt’s wiki. I’m Christian, but I tried to keep this unbiased.

Suggestion 1: I feel that adding ‘seemingly’ (…is a ‘seemingly’ perfect description…) is appropriate because, even though we know the writer’s inspiration for this song, other listeners can relate to and find comfort in this song in a different way. Correction 1: “manic depression” (original) has been regarded in the scientific, medical, and mental health communities as outdated and stigmatizing since it was replaced with the [Bipolar Disorder] (

Warning Signs and Symptoms of Bipolar Disorder — WebMD

People with bipolar disorder often have cycles of elevated and depressed mood that fit the description of " manic depression." When a person's illness follows this classic pattern, diagnosing bipolar disorder is relatively easy. But bipolar disorder can be sneaky. Symptoms can defy the expected manic-depressive sequence.

Lithium for Bipolar Disorder — WebMD

Lithium ( Eskalith, Lithobid) is one of the most widely used and studied medications for treating bipolar disorder. Lithium helps reduce the severity and frequency of mania. It may also help relieve or prevent bipolar depression. Studies show that lithium can significantly reduce suicide risk. Lithium also helps prevent future manic and depressive episodes.

It’s about a man who becomes religious in order to stop himself from committing suicide.

“ Seeing his father haunted Kurt, and Don became a central character in this latest song cycle. In “Serve the Servants” Kurt crafted his most autobiographical lyrics, starting with a direct reference to the mania around Nevermind: “Teenage angst has paid off well/ Now I’m bored and old.” There were pokes at his critics (“self-appointed judges judge”) and the way Courtney had been treated by the press (“if she floats, then she is not a witch”). But most of the song was about Don, with the infamous line: “I tried hard to have a father / But instead I had a dad.” In the chorus, Kurt downplayed the most significant single event in his life: “That legendary divorce is such a bore.”
-excerpt from heavier than heaven, the biography of Kurt Cobain (262)

Does this sound Beatles-esque to anyone else?

oh it totally was not a suicide, Kurt Cobain was not depressed, he had a raging heroin problem and he liked getting high but, any of his closest friends and bandmates all agree that he was not suicidal everybody would agree this of course besides his wife the only person with incentive to see this whole charade fix suicide pulled off. he was pretty much done with their marriage from everything I’ve heard and read. I’m not going to quote anyting because this is all basically coming from the soaked in bleach documentary but that shit was fucking convincing

I never heard of Kurt Cobain not being depressed, let alone happy. He was miserable with nausea and severe abdominal pain. My dad was actually never depressed but nausea and abdominal pain drove him to suicide. Kurt was quoting Hemingway and saying shit exactly like, “If you die you’re completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. Im not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I’ve got.” Believe it, people without suicidal ideation don’t have exactly that to say. Courtney Love was an actual victim of his selfish cruelty. Nothing hurts more than losing a spouse to suicide. it’s a vindictive thing to do.

I think it was probably, chrishasdonethemeth but mistyping the, “a,” was a happy accident.