Before you can walk you need to first be able to crawl. It’s a step before you actually can try to walk. To me that second line is the same. Before you start talking about something I believe you need to know what you’re talking about. This asks for a lot of research, and I feel that’s the biggest task in life: learning.

Highly inspired by ‘'Temptation’‘ by J.Cole & Kendrick Lamar. I altered the chorus to this because it sounds pretty alike, but I like this more.

I put that ‘'mistake’‘ with the two with’s in there to showcase the fact that I still don’t really stand completely behind the decision to showcase my weaknesses and vulnerability.

You can’t get to that point of accepting your flaws with anybody but yourself. Others don’t care about how you feel about your flaws, too selfish to even care. So if you want to progress and ‘'continue the story’‘, you’ll have to do it yourself and be ’‘the author’‘.

I was a guy that didn’t wanted to expose my weaknesses or even make myself vulnerable in situations. Never took any risks, always the good kid in class. Never really tried to go talk to any girls I liked.

But I didn’t realize I could fill up the hole with water so I wouldn’t even hit the spikes. Like making myself so confident about me that somebody’s opinion wouldn’t matter as much as it did. It’s like accepting my weaknesses and vulnerability.

I was kind of the ‘'weird kid’‘. I had a haircut with enough gel to stick water to fire, and I had a lot of pimples. Volcano face-like pimples, lol. Kind of why I closed myself, losing confidence I had.

Slowing it down, stopping in this time to reflect on some of the bad times when I had to go deep to keep myself up.

There’s so much I’ve been through that I remember when I think about my history.

I remember praying to a god that won’t answer me, how frustrated I felt. That’s also a reference to a line on Joey Bada$$‘ Hardknock.

I remember being at a party with a lovely lady, and how she would just wanna dance with me. For me this was a big thing, being a scarecrow and all. Made me feel more confident.

It’s just a young man (Me) that’s learning the rules and lessons of life. And whenever I feel ready to express that shit, it’s mostly about what I feel has to be said. This could be how a recent trend is just wrong (drinking too much or something like that)

A personal line. I feel I could rather show the weaknesses through a song than to make excuses to run away from them.

When I wrote this, I’ve said goodbye to that wrong clan a long time ago. But I still felt the insecure dude that shouldn’t show his weaknesses. But while I wrote this, I was in a good spot. Truly saw a fruititious future out there for me.