a sin is taint or “dirt” and once I reformed my ways, I still had those “evil” thoughts, so was I the same?

I found self-esteem thru sleeping around and being women, one to the next, but kept all my feelings of fear and doubt inside, still leading others in the path I was setting an example for, for the few that looked up to me because I only cared about the world of props and hip hop that mattered to me.

Making the sign of the crucifix

Am I going to Heaven or Hell?

another way of saying I like to do coke “the ski’s (snow) where I sneeze (my nose)

I never took steps towards correcting the negative behavior I continued indulging in (sex, drugs, women, etc.) and I continued thinking with my dick, ignoring commitment, instead of crying, I’d smoke the pain away and instead of owning up to emotions, I’d laugh them out, it seemed easier

Thinking about the inter-medium between heaven and hell and death while still being alive.