A symbol of things that are ridden, that one rides for travel until they no longer feel like moving- and so they sit out in the rain, rusted by non-use and lack of concern.

If he would have stayed he would have just been an object/character in an existential narrative…eventually a lost interest, a symbol of a “thing”, an object of thought, and not a person.

Somehow he survives the pain of not being with her as well as the pain suffered by questioning his philosophy.

Cain killed his brother Able out of jealousy.

His mind wants to kill his will to survive (his philosophy), to get over the pain…his mind wants to kill his will to be “able”.

They are angry at themselves for getting this far.

Regardless of the concepts of existentialism, the philosophy, or the conversation ABOUT these things, in reality- they are both the same at this moment…sad and depressed. *crying

He thinks there is a small possibility he could be wrong about all this, but believes in order to know- you have to start back at the beginning and see it through the end.

He feels he was thrown into a way of thinking he never considered and so has to retrace his steps.

These feelings were brought on by the thoughts he read, by the ideas he filled his head with, by a woman who’s head was equally filled with the same thoughts…and looking for someone to pour them into.

He is questioning his own philosophy.

The writer of these thoughts (he now questions) has no relation to his readers, he writes and walks away, while we suffer to understand it’s meaning.

The characters within the book are free as soon as you shut it’s pages, but the character you’ve become in reading them are stuck with you, in your psyche.

Thinking about these authors, he recalls Albert Camus “A Happy Death”, in that story there is a character named Marie. Like the Old Man Perez character from Camus “The Stranger”, Marie is a love interest of the main figure but like all characters which push for purpose (in this case in love/monogamy) she is disregarded entirely.

The person in this song finds himself trapped in an existential design by his partner, suffering the same treatment as those characters opposite the main characters in these existentially driven novels: “No Exit”, “The Stranger”, and “A Happy Death”.

He feels not for the center of interest in those novels but for the characters swept aside to further the point of a purposeless existence.

The loneliness has it’s own nature and “being”, it speaks to him saying there is nothing to believe in, that he is better to be alone.

Looking for himself, feeling trapped and alone- with just the condensation from his own breath, the humidity of his anxiety consuming his room.