july 29, 2020.
i get a message on soundcloud
from some random person
asking for a collab.
nothing new.

whenever someone cold dm’s me,
i always make sure to check out their stuff,
in case it ends up being like this situation,
with dexter hamlin.

his profile didn’t blow me away,
but it was the most promise
i had ever heard from
a stranger out the blue.

by my suggestion,
we end up on a zoom call.
then another, and another.
before we know it, we’ve finished
a handful of songs together.

i rarely collab,
but me and dex hit it off quick.
he sent me this
“mr. master type beat”
early into our exchange.
sat on it for over a year.
time came. spazzed.

see also:

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at the start of 2022,
i became enamored by nature.
talking small with trees.
birdwatching at stoplights.
listening to gardening podcasts.
devouring nature writing,
including this book, which has
a moving passage on birds' nests
that greatly inspired this verse.

finished writing, got busy, didn’t record it.
felt like i needed to wait for the right moment,
feel the right feeling for me to revisit it.

~

auditioned for a musical at my university.
didn’t get in. ended up on backstage crew.
met this girl. one of the lead actresses.
heard her sing. handed her props. fell.

closing night, before the show,
a cast member gave everyone flowers.
after the show, i handed her mine, and left.
drove straight home, and recorded this.
first take, only take.

it’s not that deep,
as deep as building a home for her.
just another case of a crush forlorn.
for what it’s worth though,
this one’s hers.

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with bird ambience from:

recent obsession:
nature live streams.
relaxing. grounding.

see also:

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sped up a lil

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another teenhood classic.
also another instance of being
unable to find the sample,
so i just looped a part of the song.

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