A lot of dudes talk that gangsta talk but when they screw around and go too far,by committing a murder,for example,they begin to show their true colors and facing reality forces them to break down.
He begins going over the event in his head,trying to rationalize and think about the ‘what ifs’. He’s paranoid,he’s having nightmares and he can’t stop thinking about the image of fresh blood stains on his shoes.
Then when he wakes up from these dreams,he feels ill and nauseous like a pregnant woman dealing with morning sickness or a pregnant woman that’s actually preparing to give birth.