Wicked motherfuckers will do shit for the stupidest thing. Stupid. Like, you’ve got to think about the things they do for cars, clothes, hoes. All that shit depreciates in value. You know?

So, they’re doing it for the moment, and it’s whatever. Then, when they get older and look back on it, like, “Damn. That was stupid.” Just imagine the niggas that are in jail right now for killing X. They’re like, “Fuck. We did that for that? I’ve got to spend the rest of me life in here? Fuck.” They’re like, “Fuck, man.” Like, they’re going to really realize how much freedom they have when they’re stuck in there.

My own personal demons are like self-doubt. I doubt myself a lot. I did contemplate suicide a couple of times throughout my life. But every time when I contemplate it, it’s just like, something stops it. The first time, it was, I think, when I got kicked out of art school for the first time. I contemplated it because nobody liked me and nobody understood me. I just felt like everything was going to shit. Like, my parents weren’t together. I was alone. Nobody really got me. There was really only one person that got me, and that was my best friends. That was Shane. That’s my best friend for life. No girls liked you and shit, so I was just like, “This is why I don’t want to be here.” You know?

It gets like that sometimes, you know? Then, even in 2016 when I was going through all types of shit. Like, when me and my girl broke up, I really wanted to die. I just wanted things to end. I didn’t want to see nobody. I didn’t care about nothing. I was just in bed. I wasn’t eating. I was getting skinnier. My mom was like, “You got mad skinny.” I was like … She was like, “Are you eating?” I was like, “No.” You know? I didn’t care about nothing. I really didn’t care about nobody. That’s how I felt, and I just want to make sure that when I go, I know it’s not going to do no apologies. Death ain’t going to apologize for what you do to yourself or what somebody else is going to do you. You know?

That’s what it is. Death is inevitable. Everybody is going to die. I’m going to die. You’re going to die. I just don’t know when, and it ain’t going to do no apologies. It’s going to be like, “Hey, sorry. I’m Death. I’m going to fucking kill you or cause you to kill yourself” then, take you to somewhere else. You know?

Everybody has a lot of demons, it’s how you face them. Like, I could slay demons left and right because I just know, having demons is only an obstacle. That’s an obstacle in your way because it’s like, “How are you going to get over this demon?” “Well, I’m going to do this. Boom!” It’s all about flexibility and strength, and like how to get past that because you could push through a demon with your angels, you know?

God bless you. God has blessings. God will give you so many blessings even if it doesn’t look like it. You know what I’m saying? The worst thing could happen to you, just like the Book of Job. The worst thing could happen to you, but with that faith in God, you could have blessings on top of blessings and that will never change. God will always be there, and that’s what keeps me afloat. That’s why I try to stay low, so my demons don’t acknowledge me.

Everything takes a piece of your soul at the end of the day. The more you do, or the more you do things, the more you live your life, the more you get bigger, some of your morals start to diminish after a while. Once they diminish after a while, your soul is slowly being taken until you go to that next level where you’re just like, “I feel like I have no soul because everybody done ripped it out of my in some way.” Either a girl can rip it out of you, or fans can rip it out of you. The industry can rip it out of you. Anybody can rip your soul out of you, and that all plays one part and plays a big role with your relationship with God and the devil, you get it?

Kids are so desensitized to a lot of things that are going on right now. If somebody dies, what are they going to do? They’re going to pull out their phone instead of calling 911. If somebody is getting jumped, they’re not going to help the person getting jumped. Phone. When somebody is in a fight and a knife gets pulled out, they ain’t going to stop the person from getting stabbed. Well, I ain’t going to lie. Would I stopped somebody from getting stabbed? I don’t know because that’s kind of crazy. I don’t want to get stabbed in the process.

All I’m saying is they’re so desensitized with everything. They’ll pull out their phone before they call for help or try to help someone. You know? It’s like the episode of Black Mirror. Remember how that girl was like, “Help me! Help me! I need help!” And everybody was just recording her while this guy is chasing her down with a gun. You feel me? Even though she was a messed up person at the end, but that’s literally saying, “This is how society is.” Like, everybody will take out their phone before anything.

So, that’s where it’s like, “I don’t even know what to feel.” Like, nobody knows what to feel until it actually happens, you know? They’re like, “Oh, he ain’t going to do it.” Then when something happens, “Boom!” Now, everybody feels some type of way. When a school shooting happens, like they’ll make fun of it. They’ll be like, “Hah ah,” but when it actually happens, you’re like, “Whoa! What happened?” Somebody will say like, “Oh, I’m suicidal,” but you’ll look past it because he plays a funny personality or whatever, until he actually commits suicide, and you’re like, “Whoa! He actually did that?”

So, that’s why it be like, “People don’t know what to feel,” because they be like, “I don’t how to feel right now.” That’s the first thing people are going to say when something bad occurs. They’re like, “I don’t know what to feel right now.” Then, “They don’t even know what’s real,” with that lyric, nobody knows what’s real and what’s fake. Like, yeah with people dying, yeah that’s real. Like, real … When it comes down to these beefs and everything that’s happening right now, I don’t know if that’s real. You know what I mean?

Well, my mom was a Jehovah’s Witness. Both of them had a major role in my life. My dad was like spiritual. I wouldn’t say he was the most religious, but he went to church and everything. But he wasn’t pushing religion on me. He was just like, “Yo, as long as you believe in God and he’s in your heart, that’s what it is and you maneuver.”

My mom, on the other hand, she’s a Jehovah’s Witness, so she’s really into religion. She instilled a lot of morals that I have until this day. Both of my parents instilled a lot of morals that I have. So, when it comes down to these records, I always give you that little bit of substance, even though I’m trying to have fun at the same time. I’m not trying to be like, “You need to do … You’ve got to.” No, I ain’t with all that. I ain’t trying to do all that.

I’m trying to be like, “Look, yeah we can turn up, but there’s a little bit of truth in it, bitch.” You know what I’m saying?

Very simple, because I just want to feel myself. I want to be able to feel myself and be confident, and do what I’ve got to do with this music. With music in general. Art in general. Then, “You want me to kill myself.” You want me to break my back for you all the time, and nine times out of ten, you might not like what I’m going to do. I’m trying to break my back for others. I’m literally killing myself for others. For other’s entertainment. You getting me?

When it comes down to the literal sense of killing myself, people be like, “I’m talking pills. I’m doing this. I’m doing that.” Most of these people that are doing is are rappers and peers that I know, and I don’t want nobody to get it, and I don’t want nobody to die. So, really, I’m saying I care about a lot of these guys that’s doing this thing because I want them to be able to lead the youth, but I don’t want them to kill themselves over it. Over clout or materialistic things.

I wasn’t raised that way. You see, I don’t got no gold chain. I don’t got nothing. The only jewelry I got is in my mouth. And piercings. That’s it.