though most of my week or so spent
revisiting the site were positive,
there were a couple of times where i saw
things verging on disturbing.
if the viewer tips the model
a certain amount of tokens,
she has to do a certain thing,
from something silly (winking, ahegao)
to something more (pain, cumming).
every once in a while, i’d see a stream
where a woman was tipped for something
she very obviously did not want to do.
yes, she put it on her menu of actions.
yes, you paid money for it, maybe a lot.
is she obligated to do it? can she say no?
she would usually do it, reluctantly,
and that dissonance stays with me.
this was also the first time
i had seen a woman orgasm
while screaming the word “no.”