Laura Jane Grace wrote this song for her daughter, Evelyn Gabel. Like “FuckMyLife666,” it deals with impermanence and savoring life’s little moments before they fade away.

“FUCKMYLIFE666” is a song and single from Against Me!’s 2014 full-length, Transgender Dysphoria Blues. The song expresses singer Laura Jane Grace’s concerns about the stability of her relationship with her wife, Heather Gabel, following her coming out as transgender. The song is addressed to Heather.

The title of this track, which Jeremy D. Larsen of Pitchfork described as a “MySpace username as song title,” was inspired by singer Laura Jane Grace’s now-deceased friend, Pope. She told FMQB:

“Fuck my life” is something that he would say all the time. Whenever he got frustrated, he would say, “Ah, fuck my life!” and storm out of the room or whatever, so the title was very much a tribute to him. He was into stuff like “666” and all that, so that song in particular isn’t about him, but the song “Dead Friend” is.

“Dead Friend” is about Laura Jane Grace’s friend Pope, who also inspired the title of “FuckMyLife666”. Pope was a lighting designer who worked on an Against Me! tour and became friends with the band. While working on the tour, he fell and broke his foot causing him to be hospitalized. The band moved on with other things, and the doctors treated Pope for more than just his foot, eventually over medicating him, which led to his death, at the age of only 26.

Like many deceased individuals, Pope still has a Facebook page, updated occassionally by friends. According to that page, his funeral was held April 22, 2011. A video obituary for Pope can be found below.

The closing song on Against Me!’s major label debut (2007’s New Wave) has received increased attention due to the opening lyrics of the second verse after the lead singer came out as a transgender woman. At the time the song was recorded and released, Laura was afraid that the song would out her, but her identity remained a secret until she publically came out in The Rolling Stone in 2012.

Laura Jane Grace has mentioned before in interviews that they had to fight to get the song onto New Wave, even as the closing track, as the record company didn’t like it. “It has no chorus, just two verses and a weird outro.”

Against Me! singer Laura Jane Grace says of this final song on Transgender Dysphoria Blues:

It’s an angry song, and it’s about feeling like you have certain relationships in your life where you have to fake the person that you are and be inauthentic and compromise yourself to people you work with or people you see out at a bar who corner you — who make you the kind of person that you aren’t, really — and feeling like you’re so angry that you just want to be like blacked out from someone’s existence, like, “Fucking forget about me, don’t think about me anymore, I do not exist to you anymore.” That kind of feeling.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ep7493LueOw

In a Rolling Stone interview, Against Me! singer Laura Jane Grace says this anthemic track off 2014’s Transgender Dysphoria Blues concerns fears about coming out as trans:

You become more brave about presenting femme, but you’re still closeted, so you have nowhere to go… You end up in a weird motel in the middle of nowhere, wandering down halls, hoping nobody sees you."