In his paranoia the writer feels that both his governing psyche and the medical institutions that are supposed to be assisting him are just setting him up to feel even more pain. So even though he’s taking medication, that he does not want to take, in order to help himself, its eventually going to wind up causing him suffering and he will feel that it isn’t his fault.
Also there is a tie in to the cliche “you reap what you sow” which is commonly used to tell people that they get what they deserve. In this case he feels it is a false statement because he is not getting what he deserves, he’s been set up.