Tired of not being on tour
Back when Em was broke and unsuccessful all he wanted was to make it big time and tour around the country. But when he actually did become famous he started abusing drugs while on tour, which lead to him needing to take himself off tour. Remember, this was written in 1997 before he had experienced any type of success.
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