With the energy of memories
That's the soul force of what's behind killing me
Memories of lost family and friends drive him into pain and it “kills” him to think of about it.
there could also be word play on soul. One is the Soul of the people who are gone, and it could also mean “sole” as in, “the sole (or only) reason..”
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